I Have No One To Confide In
I have no one to share my feelings with, theres really no one in my life right now that truly cares about my well-being. Asides from my family members. Even posting my feelings on this website is getting harder seeing as how no matter what I seem to say, or express what I feel, theres always that one person that thinks its bullshit. I’m starting to feel everything go downhill again and you know it’s kind of terrible. And when I say everything going downhill again, I really mean it, I don’t feel like elaborating on what I mean but you know I’m kind of terrified. I’m so sick of feeling this way off and on for months. But I just give up, I don’t want to try and fight it, I’m tired of trying to be interested in things, I’m tired of trying to be genuinely happy and trying to feel a genuine feeling of fulfillment and fun. i’m just losing sight of everything again, losing interest, it just feels like it’s all falling apart again. I just want to press pause for awhile and take some time to stop this from happening again, I just have no motivation and its just horrible thinking about how weak and petty and useless I feel like I sound and it just makes things worse in the end. Either way I really wish I had someone I could tell everything to and feel comfortable doing so. People will reply to my calls for help telling me that they’re here for me but when I need them they don’t know what to say, they don’t need to say anything, I just need them to listen, but instead they get nervous and run off.
